I want to accept this fact .
Following the acceptance only I can find peace. Not happiness maybe but peace.
I pray to the God to give me this state of mind, the acceptance state.
This is the only way to tell the God that I am in peace whatever He wishes for me. That is the ultimate happiness and peace, i think, to surrender to Him.
That doesnt mean I am not going to strive and work for what I want.
But we all know that we are limited. We can wish, we can work, we can work hard, but the result is going to be granted by Him or not. There is a boundry we can not go beyond that. The rest is up to him. Then I need to surrender to His decision and be in peace with that.
Not an easy thing to accept. My heart gets filled with sorrow and dissapointment over what I dont get from Him.
Life is not fair.
He didnt have to give us anything at all.
Find things to thank Him and find peace.